Saturday, May 28, 2005
- - Bleh! =D - -
LoL! Good writer? Me no thinks so >_<
Well, I really envy you guys sometimes, having chances to go out and just talk crap with friends. I have not that many friends who would crap about stuff like that. Most are gamers T.T
Ahhh, yesterday my tuition teacher had a headache. So nice, I get to spend the time to refinish my deleted Naruto game. What a way to spend a Friday, ya? At night, I wanted to do some stuff with Min, but it seems we can never get to the starting point, and now Jeng's gonna join us too ~.~ I just hope she doesnt decide to quit halfway through. Oh well. (That "some stuff" is role playing in case you get any ideas...)
Today's kinda boring. Jeng's probably out or still sleeping. Min is still sleeping (wont be on until 1 most probably) and I'm extremely bored. What to do.. what to do...
Oh, about those stories.. well, I havent gotten any brain blasts for those in awhile, lemme go dream tonight and see if I can bring out any sad stories. Hehe. ^.^
ShiroiKaze ranted @ 12:04 PM ;
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Friday, May 27, 2005
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lol shit i was so bored i went to take like a quiz and this is what it said
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
lol it's kinda acurrate. I did it for fun maybe when you guys are free you can go try it.
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Edit:Friday, 7:44pm
yay !! My brother won't be around tonight >D Finally some peace and quiet for me <3 style="font-weight: bold;">IF there was really a burglar who entered the house when we were out or watever he would have just like looted everything. But her Rolex wasn't taken neither was her passport they were all laid out on the table. So she's really confused and my dad was trying to calm her down and helped her look around.
Whoever did it was really weird because who in the world wouldn't take everything? Why just her jewelleries and her money? (btw in the purse there were another few hunder USD but it wasn't taken) i mean like i said. If i was to rob/steal/loot from a person, i would take everything and leave nothing and especially the Rolex. I would definetly take it. My aunt is out now. The house is all quiet and i'm all alone. (peacefull ~~) lol anyways i got fedup with all the audio hosting hoster so i'll just use that popcornfor2 site cos it's easier. ooo.. lol i just got a phone call lol. From mummy =D I'm going out ! =D and jalan-jalan at the pasar malam !!! xD lol it's been so long i went to a pasar malam. Muahahaha i feel like i'm 7 again ^_^ *sigh* i'm so old now -_- And things weren't like this when i was 7... blah no depression !!! because it's lame and i haven't gotten it for some time.
Picked the song K - Dakishimetai. Dakishimetai means hug ^_^ K is korean, but he sings pretty well in jap. lol anyways it's like a romantic-ish and sad-ish kinda feel to it. (suits jon's story? =P)
Anyways here's the lyrics for it hope you like it ^_^
Dakishimetai - K Lyric massara na MD kakikomu you ni mou ichido mou kimi wa suteru dakedo boku wa hiroiatsume ame ga furu mae ni kasa wo sashiteta futari wa kitto yowamushi datta n' da bye bye * dakishimete hoshii tte iu ka dakishimetai kimi no taion de sugu ni memai shitai mado no soto wa ame nurete oide yo sugu aitai sugu aitai sugu aitai itsumademo matteru masshiro na mado wo suberu chiisana amatsubu wa hitotsu ni naresou de hanarenagara ochite yuku yo 1(ichi)MIRI no kyori mo tooku kanjita futari wa kitto usotsuki datta n' da bye bye * repeat dakishimete hoshii tte iu ka dakishimetai kimi no taion de sugu ni memai shitai mado no soto wa ame nurete yuku kara sugu aitai sugu aitai sugu aitai itsumademo matteru (2x)P.S- Jon write more story, because shi mei requested for more lol. And she commented you that you can write damn well. So do it lol and i just read your story. HA ! and you said i don't read! =P (i'm lazy but not that lazy lol)
P.P.S- No one returned my stapler... I guess i have to buy a new one then... *sighs* I'm getting to this P.S thing. @_@
weeee !! ~~ Pasar malam ! xD
Jeng ranted @ 11:42 AM ;
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Thursday, May 26, 2005
- - Tired, really I am - -
Well jon FIY i did change the layout but the font didnt work out so i changed it back and that post was just a test i'll delete it don't worry. I posted it kinda late and then felt lazy to delete and just left it like that. I'm absent from school today! lol i wasn't the only one.. I went with a friend to my old school today, whose name i won't mention. Had a nice time seeing old faces and stuff some weren't even there but it was still nice. Then out of no where i saw a fellow classmate who ponteng also(you know who you are) We went messing around with each other then she went home.
So me and my friend went to look for some old faces. Ya Xin was nice enough to my guide for the mean-time. (she's so tall !!!) Then i saw cher lynn, lol she nvr change. I was talking to cher lynn just like the old times, then suddenly.... Someone shrieked -_- And hugged my friend. I was like wtf... lol then i continued talking to cher lynn and suddenly.... Someone ran into my face like wanna snatch my bag or watever or like tackling something down. Hugged me, hard. (ow) She left me dazzled and shocked i didn't even reply her hug lol. She was screaming and stuff like that, well she of course is none other than Shu Ni. Omg that was so scary. I've nvr been taken by suprised that way...
Later that day i had to wait for my dad to come and pick us up... -_- he was in the bank so it took him a while.(more like a long time!!) but we settled down at the pavement, just the three of us. (yes it's just like old times!!) lol it was priceless, me, siew mun and stephenie(lol yea she's the firend ;]) Side by side we sat, just talking abt stuff like, have i changed? whose gonna be the first to be married? whose gonna be the first to commit suicide? whose gonna be the first do die? lol stuff like that. We're messing abt for fun and yes i was swearing a lot cos i really wanted to go home. lol Alvin came later and settled down and joined the conversation. Talked a lot to Alvin was kinda nice, i dunno why stephenie was so silent tho...
Later of the day we went home(yes my dad came in the end, thank God for not getting stuck in the bank) Went back to stephenie's to pick up a movie she wants me to watch with her. Horror flick. lol it was alright. She spent the rest of the day at my house. Was fun and i haven't done that in a while with her. Called abi later and chatted like for 24mins until her mum came home and she had to go. Watched american idol with stephenie later(she reminded me and i dont watch it i just watched it because it was the finale) AND THE RESULT WAS REALLY DISAPPOINTING !! I WANTED BO TO WIN NOT CARRIE !!! Abi was fuming when she knew bo didnt win stephenie too. lol then she went home and i had a little quality time with my aunt. I'm tired alredy, very tired. I really dislike things which are better to let go to be repeated again and again. We have to move on... And i definetly have. And if you said i've changed then i don't know maybe i have. But i am who i am. If you can't accpet it, then that's too bad. Cos i really don't have time to worry about minor things like that. PLEASE MOVE ON !!!!!
P.S - I promised alvin that i would send him a picture of jon. So let me take ur picture so i can send it to him
P.P.S - I AM SO TIRED ALREADY PLEASE MOVE ON !! I MEAN IT I DON'T KNOW IF YOU HAVE DISCOVERED THIS BUT DON'T MAKE ME MAD ANYMORE! I'M POLITE ENOUGH TO SAY PLEASE SO DO IT! I REALLY HAD ENOUGH.
Jeng ranted @ 11:19 PM ;
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It seems that the earlier changes you made to the blog didnt seem to take effect for me, Jeng. I'm still seeing the "Aishiteru" one.
In any case, today is such a bogus day. They want the guys from room 229 to pay up for lost blankets. it's RM30 for each person. Man, what a rip off. They probably didnt even check where'd the blankets go. That just so sucks.
Oh well, what to do about it? I'm gonna go ask Pn. Arni and see if she can tell me anything about it.
Ahhhhhh, our projects are due after the holidays. I am so gonna die, I've hardly done anything for any of them. What am I gonna do??? ._.
ShiroiKaze ranted @ 5:51 PM ;
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Tuesday, May 24, 2005
- - BLOODY RIP-OFF TRIP !! - -
omg it's such a rip-off. The art gallery was alright, but i mean there is nothing interesting there -_- And it's so not worth RM20(i paid with my own money that's why i'm pissed) i could have gave it for charity ! I wouldn't be so mad if i've use my money for some good and efficiently ! (no i aint a money face, i just don't like the fact that the school overprice and earn extra frm us, like they're income is not enough...)
lunch was alright... but i didn't really enjoyed it... but i enjoyed reading my book !(kinda) I finished watching sukisyo today ! =D it's pretty good but i'm not satisfied with how it ends. I owe mr alphonsus a chocolate bar, due to my overwhelming of joyness i forgot about my blazer ! -_- but i bought the chocolate in the end so i'm preparing to pay gratitute to mr alphonsus.(even tho he told me he was jking i still want to do it)
we were marking our geo papers today, and omg all those questions which i thought i would get wrong for i actually got them right !(most of them anyways) but i was kinda shocked the expected ones (the smart ones obviously) didnt pass... but it's nice to let them taste failure once in a while(even tho they don't like it) I pass (at least) and i'm stupider than them so many times more. Like i said to abi... This gives the stupid ones hope, like me ! =D (please don't get offended it's only a joke, no one's stupid aside frm me) Well abi and i laughed anyways.
And no jon i wont tell you my geo marks. And i'm lazy to count my total marks too. So that's that, but thank you for congratulating me that i passed for my geo( i don't know how the hell you know but word spreads fast... or are you stalking -_-) oh and steph too how did you know she passed..?(you stalk her then? =P) Anyways i'm worried abt my bm paper because of the new format -_- Oh shit first period tomorrow is maths... we're all gonna die.... I can't stand that man he's getting on my nerve and amazingly terra are filled with goody-two-shoes !!!
P.S - I've lost my stapler and i'm not happy abt it. It's colourless, small and IT'S MISSING! If anyone sees something like that please return it to me because i so not want to go all the way to the bookstore again to buy a new one !!(yes i'm very attact to my belongings they all have sentimental values to me so i'm not that easy going!!)
P.S.S - Yes i know i'm weird, and P.S I Love You will be returned to me tomorrow !! omg how i missed it but li chyi's gonna take it... sigh this ever ending cycle.. It's a good book.
Jeng ranted @ 6:44 PM ;
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Monday, May 23, 2005
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alright, let's try it this way, Jonathan.
i'm sorry to hv flamed u back in defence of my relationship. yes i'm sure it can be saved, but i'm really sad because i cannot do anything about it now. okay, u r an adamant person as u said it. for ur info, i wasn't even planning to change ur opinion on this matter. i'm only trying to defend ur attack on my relationship as i really like my gf a lot. besides, this group is open to many people so i suggest that we discontinue this useless and futile arguement.
Anonymous ranted @ 4:49 PM ;
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Jon said 'what mav is going through is nothing more than a passing stage in a disintegrating relationship. to all of u below 20 who is reading this, hving a gf now isn't good for you. i really dun agree with mav's point of saying that ppl who don't know how to control themselves will suffer from hving relationships. can a dog learn how to talk like a man instead of barking? it's the same principal. you can't stop anything set by nature, so the best is to avoid all together, no? afterall, prevention is better than cure.'
Dude Jon, no offence, but after reading the first para, i couldn't stop but to laugh at ur comments. note that i'm laughing at your COMMENTS and not at you. the Dog learning how to talk like a man was a nice touch, especially the 'set by nature' thing which instantly sealed ur comment's lameness.
and with that thought, i decided not to go any further because there's no substance at all in your post.
let's go line by line.
1. 'Wat mav is going throuhg is nth more than a passing stage in a disintegrating relationship.'
-for ur info, you don't hv any idea what sort of relationship i'm hving or it is in what state whether good, bad, dead, or really dead, or 'oh that's gonna die maverick, RUN WHILE U CAN!!!'as u put it...seriously la dude...i did not give much information about my relationship so i just don't see any base for that statement. i can conceed that the flame is going out, but it won't. i did say that my relationship is dying and that i cannot do anything bout it. and logic will tell u that sooner or later it's gonna die.
BUT like i said...u dunno a THing bout my relationship. i can bring it back after spm dude. it's the exam that's killin gus now..that's why it's diminishing the flame. i repeat that YOU DO NOT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT MY RELATIONSHIP. I ONLY GAVE U INFO THAT IT"S DYING< BUT I DID NOT SAY I CANNOT BRING IT BACK. I DID SAY THAT I CANNOT DO A THING ABOUT IT. BUT WE GO BACK TO THE MAIN POINT AGAIN< U DUNNO ANYTHING BOUT MY RELATIONSHIP< WHAT STATE OR EVEN WAT SORT OF RELATIONSHIP IT IS SO U CANNOT TAKE ADVANTAGE AND PREACH TO OTHER PPL BOUT MY RELATIONSHIP.
2. 2 al of u below 20 who is reading this, hving a gf now isnt good for u. i really dun agree with mav's point of saying that ppl who cannot control themselves will suffer from relationships... u cannot stop anything set by nature...
-dude, u r preachy. u got the correct desire, but the wrong way. and that sort of attitude has come to pass not once but as a matter of fact a few times. seriously...u had not hv a gf before, so how do know that it's bad for you? what? u took it for granted? because ur parents told u so? and other ppl as well?seriously, YOU DIDN"T HV A GF BEFORE
CHASING AFTER A GIRL DOESN"T COUNT TO KNOW THAT U KNOW ANYTHING> SERIOUSLY< IF U R SO HARD UP CHASING AFTER A GIRL, U WILL TEND TO FORGET ABOUT UR STUDIES DUDE! THAT"S WHEN U WILL START FAILING EVERYTHING. AND IF SELF-CONTROL DOESN"T COME IN, U WILL FALL EVEN MORE! THAT IS WHY THAT PPL WHO CANNOT CONTROL THEMSELVES DURING A RELATIONSHIP WILL SUFFER.
wtf? set by nature? are you saying that ALL relationships before 20 years old is bad for you? dude...use brain...let's take one example
my gf's parents hv been CHILDHOOD COUPLE SINCE FORM 2 (until now)as a matter of fact. the father is a school rugby, badminton, soccer player and Top of the best class. the mother is also top in her own class. ALL THESE HAPPENED WHEN THEY ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP. logically speaking, IF THEY DO NOT CONTROL THEMSELVES OR SPEND THEIR TIME WISELY< DO U THINK THEY STILL CAN BE TOP IN EVERYTHING? oh i'm runnin gout of time ehre...so i wil keep it short. wtf...set by nature...and don't give me that crap of 'we are still immature at below 20 and will come to our senses after that, then our relationships will turn good for us'...the example i stated OVERRIDES ur statement, jon...ur lame statement...
BESIDES< U HV NOT HV A RELATIONSHIP BEFORE, SO HOW COULD U SAY THAT IT'S BAD FOR YOU???EVEN IF U CAN"T STOP CALLING OR CHASING THIS GIRL DAY AND NIGHT, AND U JUST CAN"T CONTROL URSELF BECAUSE U WANT TO BE WITH HER AND ALL< U R GONNA FALL. THUS AGAIN I SAY THAT UR STATEMENT IS LAME.
3. cannot stop anything by nature, the best is to avoid altogether, no?
-seriously...I WON"T GIVE OUT ADVICE JUST LIKE THAT WITHOUT A 2ND THOUGHT OR PROPERLY INVESTIGATING THE SITUATION. IF THAT GUY CAN COPE AND JUGGLE WITH HIS DAILY LIFE AND STUDIES, WHAT'S WRONG WITH HAVING A GF?AGAIN I SAY IF HE HAS SELF-CONTROL, HE NEEDN"T WORRY ABOUT AVOIDING RELATIONSHIPS.
here's my advice to u, Jon,,,oh, i got 2 advice for u:
a) don't simply give out advice just for the sake of preaching or showing off...it will lead someone astray
b) since u r chasing after a girl now, i advice u to control and mantain ur sense of 'logic' to not go after her nonstop and forget ur studies.
4. prevention is better than cure
- dude...lame...u could say that :
a) a relationship before 20 is bad for you
b) a relationship before 20 is guaranteed to die, as set by nature
c)its best to avoid relationships
d)prevention is better than cure
dude...u can say all that statements...and yet u r still chasing after a girl. dude, if u think it's bad, why do u still chase after her? with a mentality like that, u are guaranteed to get wiped from this world,not to mention any debates.
AGAIN I SAY TO U, THAT IF U CAN CONTROL URSELF WHILE CHASING THE GIRL AND STILL JUGGLE IWTH UR STUDIES AND ALL...THEN ITS OKAY TO HV A GF.
u might say 'my studies are good and i hv good results...so wat if i want to chsae after a girl?' true dude...i never said it's wrong. but if u r too hard up chasing her, and u CANNOT CONTROL URSELF, then u r GUARANTEED TO FAIL EVERYTHING.
now my points are:
a)Jon's post is lame
b)no point in reading Jon's post after 1st para
c)i don't care about harrassment because he harrassed me blindly in the first place by stating 'mav is in a relationship that's sure to die as set by nature'
d)if u hv self-control, it's okay to be in a relationship now
yes dude, i respect ur view. but sad to say, it's a waste of time reading it. sorry to offence u back.
Anonymous ranted @ 1:18 AM ;
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It's very true what is written above, and when anything, it means anything. Including relationships.
What Maverick is going through is nothing more than a passing stage in a disintegrating relationship. To all of you who are below 20 and reading this, let me remind you that having a girlfriend at this age is not good for you. I really don't agree with Maverick's point of view saying that only people who don't know how to control themselves will suffer from having realtionships. Can a dog learn to talk like a man instead of barking? It's the same principle. You cant stop something already set by nature, so the best would be to avoid all together, no? Afterall, prevention is better than cure.
Besides, I also know how you feel... to have everything seem like it would all fit into place, that nothing wrong could ever happen. To see all posibilites that could happen, just to have them dashed against the rocks of despair. To actually meet the girl that sets your heart jumping like... I don't know how to describe it.. You feel great after talking to her, no matter what physical effects it has on you. You always hope that she'll feel the same way that you do, but it never happens.
That's the difference between our torments.
That's why it's a bad idea to be coupling at our tender age. Heartbreak is such a painful thing to take. You have your experience that tells you so. I have mine. How can you still say that you can disagree with what those people have told you!?
That's all I got to say for now. I'll send some story scenes for your reading pleasures soon, no problems.
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Edits: Make that they come now lol. I have nothing to do and I'm not tired yet.
Here's one that I wanted to send for the Year Book, but decided agaisnt it. First, it's too long to write into something decent, second, they might not accept it due to the ending. Still, I think you'll find this touching.
The wind was blowing hard on top of the cliff by the sea-side. May swept a hand through her flowing blond hair as it whipped about her body. Her clothes hung tight to her body as she looked over the peaceful ocean view. "Sigh... what a beautiful sight..." she whispered to herself, hand sub-consciously moving into her pants pocket and taking out a golden heart-shaped locket. She opened it and looked at the two pictures inside, which were taken two years ago. One was of her, smiling happily with her arms wrapped around something which abruptly dissapeared. The other picture was that of a boy, young and handsome, but face set in a bittersweet smile. One of his arm was missing from his picture. She sighed again and held the locket close to her chest, looking over the ocean scenery again.
"Why...?" She whispered to herself again, wind whipping about her more violently. "Why did you have to do it...?" Her hand grasped the locket more tightly, as if trying to break it into pieces. Her mind wandered back, back to the times when they were together...
-Flashback-
May ran forward, laughing happily while tugging at his hands to take her on the ride. "Come on, or we won't be able to get on for the whole day!" She said, tugging hard at his arm. His silent face hardly budged an inch, but she could see a sort of smile in his eyes. "Alright then... let's go?" he said, pulling her forward this time. She staggered and ran after him, laughing happily.
-Flashback no.2-
She was holding his arm in fright at the movie, a box of popcorn infront of her. As the characters in the cinema screen moved about, running away from the monster on the screen, she held on tighter to his arm, pretending to be scared. He looked over to his side where she was sitting. He placed his hand on top of her head, carresing her. She sighed softly and snuggled up closer to him. He smiled and placed the side of his head on top of hers. She sighed contentedly.
-Flashback no.3-
She was holding him around the waist, scrunching her eyes agaisnt the incident that just happened. He stood over her protectively, as two other guys in muscle shirts and steel pipes in their hands moved forward to beat him up. "May, let go of me," He whispered to her, "or else I can't fight." Obidiently, she let go of him and watch him run forward and beat up the two rowdy gangsters. He turned back to her and smiled, holding his hand forward to take hers. She looked down a little shyly before walking forward and placing her hand in his.
-Flashback no.4-
Looking into his bettle black eyes, she slowly wrapped her arms around his neck, bringing their faces close to each other. He had one hand around her waist, the other pressed slightly agaisnt the back of her head, pushing it forward to meet his. With their lips inches apart, she whispered the three words that he had wanted to hear the most : "I Love You...". He leaned closer in, until their lips were barely touching, and whispered his reply. She blushed at what he said and tried to push away. He wouldnt let her and pressed his lips agaisnt hers. She quickly warmed up to him before they decided to have some fun on the nearby bed...
-End Of Flashbacks-
Looking back at all her happy memories, she couldnt help but smile as tears flooded her eyes. She looked back over the side of the cliff, into the churning sea below. Shaking her head, she backed away from the cliff's edge. "I can't do it..." She said to herself, backing away from the cliff edge.
"May!!" The shout penetrated through the loud buffeting air. A dark brown haired man was running towards her from the mainland. "May!!" He shouted again, trying to get her attention. Oh no, I don't want to see him now... She turned her back on him as he reached her. "May, please, don't be angry..." he pleaded with her, puffing for breath. He stopped to regain his breath. "Please forgive me..." "Tell me, why should I...?" She whispered, turning around to face him. "Why should I, when you did it willingly and unthinkingly? It's you that decided to do it, not her!" May's voice escalated to screaming point. "You knew that this would happen! Yet you did it anyway! Tell me why should I forgive you?" She screamed at him, tears leaking out of the side of her eyes again.
"..I'm sorry..." he whispered to her. "I should have thought it through properly before doing it. I wasn't thinking properly... Please, don't be mad at me..." He pleaded to her. "Well, you should have thought of that!" She retorted. "And Keep your hands off me!" She added, throwing his hands off as he tried to wrap them around her.
As she pushed herslef away from him, her foot slipped on the moist surface of the clifftop, sending her over the edge. She screamed as she started to fall. He grabbed her hand in an attempt to pull her up but his shoes slipped in the moist surface too and he went over with her.
Time slowed for the couple as they fell from the rockface. He wrapped his arms around her and held on tightly. Suprised and with tears filling her eyes, May asked her last question. "W-why...?" He whispered into her ears his reply, " Because I love you.. and I can't live without you... I'd rather die with you than endure life without you..." May let her tears flow freely, and said : "I love you too.. and I forgive you..." He didnt have any time to reply her before they were dashed across the sheer rockface just before plummeting into the water.
(After their deaths, did they really end up staying together? I really don't know. That's for you to decide. Happy readings)
ShiroiKaze ranted @ 12:57 AM ;
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Greetings bloggers! personally, i don't see a point in blogging. is this a way to pass your time? or is this for fun? if there's fun in blogging, sorry i don't see it. anyway, bak pepatah 'masuk kandang kambing mengembek, masuk kandang lembu menguap'...aha...okay i will play along since i'm here.
okay, let's start from the top...from the very beginning of time...where time has finally came to a halt for me with life pausing just for a moment, in bliss and hope...but everytime time slows down, it has to speed up. just as things go up, it will also go down...what i'm really sad about is my relationship with my gf, that's going down, slowly steadily and one step at a time. sad thing about it is i can't do anything to stop it. no matter how slow it's declining, it's still too fast for me...i hv no choice but to slowly let it fade...maybe i could do something, i just don't see how.
everybody says having a gf now is nothing more but a distraction. i totally disagree with that statement. hving a gf now will only be distracting if you dunno how to control yourself and it depends on your gf as well.
my gf is the first girl i ever considered tackling. almost everyone have gf's around f2 or f3 or f4, but i wasn't really interested in hving one in the first place. that is until i got to know her, one month after i met her. from then on, thing went uphill. great changes started to change. and a very different chemistry starts to generate. since knowing her, i started discouraging a few girls that were interested in me, in hoping that i would get her sometime.
she's the only one that actually walked into me, deeply and cared for me. she helped with my addmath, chem and my piano...she even encouraged and gave me strong support before both of my chess comps...and i helped her in physics, logarithma, bio and when she's down, i comfort her. in short, yea we like each other a lot.
after that...things went downhill...in ways that i didn't predict or foresee...i only saw myself coupling up with her after spm, but i did not see the effects which will happen in a few months time.
jeez...her best friend's cousin once told me that before she met me, she was asking all her friends,' what's it like to really like someone?'...upon hearing that...my first thought was 'i just hope i could be the answer to that question'
do u notice that my thoughts are all over the place? first i started from the beginning, what i hope that will come in the future>>>things we helped each other>>>things going downhill>>>back to what i hope...that's precisely the condition of my thoughts now...it's running back and forth...lol arus ulang alik...
i still remember once she said ' well let me be honest with you...i dont' talk to you also it's like nothing wan...no offence la...but i'm just being straight forward and to the point'... she wouldnt' hv said that when our relationship is thriving...i felt very hurt after that...as i really miss her a lot and i bring my hp around in hoping that she would call...but she only does at around 12:30 am...i said she could call me anytime, even at 4am...i will still be happy to pick up her call... true it's effecting my sleep...but everytime i wake up the next morning after talking to her, i will feel fresh and happy and ready to face the day...well...i just hope that she feels the same way as well...
true, no relationship can work...if it's one sided...i second that...
anyway enough of being depressed here...nice meeting you all...i see that this group is still small lol...hope it will expand beyond the lands of the earth :p...God bless you all!!!
ehehe i like this poem...
Take a pen, and draw a moon, in the marshmallow sky,
take a candy cane kid, with a gleam in his eye.
When in walks a dream, from heaven above,
and a song feels his heart, and his feelings of love.
God bless you all again!!!
Anonymous ranted @ 12:21 AM ;
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Sunday, May 22, 2005
- - No longer frustrated ! (I think) - -
lol yes I finally got the damn thing working. Yahoo briefcase gave me a lot of problems... so I gave up using that song in the end.. So I changed it to Maaya Sakamoto's - Loop, yeap it's from Tsubasa Chronicle. Haha it's kinda nice and sweet too! Oh wells I guess Bulldog Mansion's got to go... wasn't very suitable for the blog layout neways...
I have no lyrics for this song. (I'm not so free to transcribe it.. perhaps Min can do it ! =D) Me went out today. Pretty fun bought some books, will read them when I'm free. Got my results from abi today and I'm satisfied with them ! But have to work harder for the mid-term.. Oh parents day is on the 27th May... Good luck to all cempakan whose personal tutor are kinda harsh and grades/attitude aren't so good...
I survived Miss Joanne's class today ! And same goes for Miss Angie(guitar teacher) ! Oh wells at least I came home in 1 piece *grins at Min* Me didn't see Min today. Me is sleepy too... Miss Joanne sent me home today ! =D That's very nice, and she'll be going to the states so no class next week. I'm gonna miss her... Oh wells no homework given by her but KH kerja kursus has to pass up next week. At least tuesday we get to go to this very rip-off trip to the art gallery place. RM 20.00.. that's really lame this is why I hate this fuking school... I shall go bath now and hope I get to see Min or someone familliar later.
Jeng ranted @ 7:46 PM ;
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Yes I think I am frustrated... blah that damn thing music player thingy plays the music for a while then it doesn't. But I hope it's just me I wonder if the others are facing the same thing.
Got really fed up messing around with the html code. I need lessons -_- but I'm too dumb to understand tutorials but who cares. At least I can get a layout work, which I think is okay.
I went to watch a movie alone while my brother was playing gb on the comp, while I forgot to sign out of msn which caused quite a number of spams but they all went offline and I can't reply them. Oh wells...
I was watching The Pacifier alone. (yes I like watching movies alone) was pretty good. Then suddenly, I realised I have piano lesson tomorrow morning ¬_¬ I got carried away goofing off today and I forgot to practice... and do some theory work... Shit I'll die tomorrow, I have guitar lessons to make things worst... Blah i don't care screw ABRSM !
The song I use for the blog don't really suit the layout ^^''' but me will change it later. It's called It's My birthday day by Bulldog Mansion. It's in korean, krock's pretty nice. I got hooked to this song by watching the flash There She Is !! It's really nice go check it out when you have time. Here's the lyrics.
아직 누워있는 Monday
그러게 말이야 Tuesday
a-jik nu-wo-it-neun monday
geu-reo-ge ma-ri-ya tuesday
Monday, I'm still lying in bed
Tuesday, yep that's right
차가운 그녀보다 차갑게
잠든 내 맘을 깜짝 놀라게 해줘요.
아직 얼얼한 걸
cha-ga-un geu-nyeo-bo-da cha-gap-ge
jam-deun nae-mameul kkam-jjak nola-ge hae-jwo-yo
a-jik eoreol-han geol
I am in a sleep colder than she is cold
Wake me up shockingly please
I am not sufficiently shocked yet
학교가기 싫은 Wednesday
그래도 가야지 Thursday
hakkyo-gagi si-reun wednesday
geuredo ga-yaji thursday
Wednesday, I don't want to go to school
Thursday, but even so I still have to go
멍청히 하룰 살 순 없잖아
뭔진 몰라도 일단 뛰어봐
meong-cheong-hi ha-rul sal-sun eob-jana
mwon-jin mol-ra-do il-dan ttwi-eo-bwa
A day is not to be spent lazing around
Even if I don't know what's going on, let's run around and see
It's my birthday
혼자만의 First day
두근대는 난 확 달라질 거야
넌 모르겠지만 나 다시 태어나
너에게로 갈 거야.
It's my birthday
honja-man-ui firstday
du-geun-dae-neun nan hwak dalla-jil geo-ya
neon moreu-gejji-man na dasi tae-eo-na
neo-e-ge-ro gal geo-ya
It's my birthday, just me and my birthday
My heart is beating fast, I might change in a second
I don't know about you, but if I were to be reborn
I would still run to you
어쩐지 가뿐한 Friday
닷새나 기다려 Saturday
Saturday night fever 라지만
마땅하게 갈 곳도 없는 난
eo-jjeon-ji ga-bbun-han friday
dat-sae-na gi-da-ryeo saturday
saturday night fever ra-ji-man
ma-ttang-ha-ge gal-got-do eob-neun nan
Friday, can't find my motivation
Saturday, the day that all students wait for
It's supposed to be Saturday Night Fever
But I have nowhere to go
It's my birthday
혼자만의 First day
두근대는 난 확 달라질 거야
넌 모르겠지만 나 다시 태어나
너에게로 갈 거야.
It's my birthday
honja-man-ui firstday
du-geun-dae-neun nan hwak dalla-jil geo-ya
neon moreu-gejji-man na dasi tae-eo-na
neo-e-ge-ro gal geo-ya
It's my birthday, just me and my birthday
My heart is beating fast, I might change in a second
I don't know about you, but if I were to be reborn
I would still run to you
오늘은 너와의 Sweet day 바람 맞히진 말아줘
o-neureun neo-wa-wi sweet day baram machi-jin mara-jwo
Today is a sweet day with you, please don't stand me up
It's my birthday 너와 함께
Sweet day 우리들의 First day
니 곁에 있는 내 손을 놓지마
널 사랑해 Birthday
처음이야 First day
두근대는 난 확 달라질 거야
It's my birthday neo-wa ham-kke
sweet day uri-deul-wi first day
ni gyeotte it-neun nae son-eul not-chi-ma
neol sa-rang-hae birthday
cheo-eum-i-ya firstday
du-geun-dae-neun nan hwak dalla-jil geo-ya
It's my birthday, the sweet day with you
Our first day
Don't put my hand next to you
I love you, birthday,
it started with a first day
My heart is beating so fast, I might change in a second
Although you don't know it, I am spending the whole day with you, only today
넌 모른다 해도 나 오늘만큼은
너와 함께 할 거야
neon moreunda hae-do na o-neul-man-keum-eun
neo-wa ham-kke hal geo-ya
Even if you don't know it, I am spending the whole of today, just today, with you
Oh god I hope Ms Joanne(piano teacher) spares me tomorrow morning... I'll die if she scolds me... -_-
Jeng ranted @ 12:05 AM ;
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
- - Saturday Melodies~ - -
Hello all you imaginary people who are reading this blog! =D
Saturday today seems to be a day of discovery for me.. I just realised this is my 5th week without going to youth group! yay! =D
I found out that my limit for gunbound is 3 hours before I need a break or else I just plain can't play anymore.
I also just discovered bigfoot's weak point for boomer! yay!
Last but not least, I discovered that... I'm a jerk! =D Isn't that a happy thought?
In any case, was planning on taking Jeng out for a movie, but can't cuz my dad and mom went out for some buisness thing and I don't have a chance to do so cuz I can't drive. I want my driver's liscence.
Today seems like anotehr boring day ahead of me.. more than half of it already wasted... but what can I do about it? =D
Sigh... wish I could play songs on the webby.. but Jeng hasnt figured out how to do that yet =P
For anyone that likes Simple Plan, here are Shut Up's lyrics:
There you go! You're always so right, it's all a big show, it's all about you...
You think you know, what everyone needs, you always take time to cirtisize me!
It seems like everyday I make mistakes, I just can't get it right,
It's like I;m the one you love to hate, but not today...!
Chorus:
So shut up shut up shut up, don't wanna hear it!
Get out get out get out, get out of my place!
Step up step up step up step up you'll never stop me!
Nothing you say today is gonna bring me down!
There you go! I never ask why, it's all a big lie, whatever you do...
You think you're special, but I know, and I know, and we know, and we know that you're not!
You're always there to point out my mistakes, and shove them in my face...
It's like I'm the one you love to hate, but not today...!
Chorus:
So shut up shut up shut up, don't wanna hear it!
Get out get out get out, get out of my place!
Step up step up step up you'll never stop me!
Nothing you say today is gonna bring me down!
Background: (x2)
Shut up shut up! Is gonna bring me down
Don't tell me who is should be...
And don't try to tell me what's right for me...
Don't tell me what I should do...
I don't want to waste my time, I'll watch you fade away!
Chorus:(x2)
So shut up shut up shut up, don't wanna hear it!
Get out get out get out, get out of my place!
Step up step up step up, you'll never stop me...
Nothing you say today is gonna bring me down...
Background:
Bring me down..
Shut up shut up shut up!
Won't bring me down...
Bring me down...
Shut up shut up shut up!
Won't bring me down...
Shut up shut up shut up!
ShiroiKaze ranted @ 4:11 PM ;
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weee saturday afternoon, don't really feel well. Bored staying at home and is still worried about my aunt. I wonder why she can't lighten up... locking herself in her room and stuff like that makes us worry. She even see a phychiatrist(i don't know how you spell it) and then she breaks down and cry everytime... Blah we're all trying to help her but she won't pull through. Only time can tell...
Really feel like shit this afternoon due because
i) i am bored
ii) i prolly won't go out because no one's taking me out
iii) my head hurts
iv) i slept really late last night
v) i'm hungry !
neways me find food and get more er blog members because this blog is so dead ;_;
where's min? ;_;
lol me like th layout but me no like does words, Aishiteru ~_~
I don't know how to change it !!! T_T
I'm no html genius anyways me like the skin but will find a better one ! =D ( i hope)
Jeng ranted @ 12:59 PM ;
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Just thought I'd post something to get started =D This is all just crap so dont worry
ShiroiKaze ranted @ 12:10 AM ;
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