Monday, June 20, 2005
- - It's finally getting to me... - -
lol like i said to jon, It's getting to me jon !! It's getting to me !!! T_T Yes i think i really have to start studying like mad. 104 more days to go. [then it'll be over for the year...] 5th July's my piano exam. [oh joy] I'm not prepared yet..[well 70-40] but anyways i have to practice !! My 2nd trials with teacher Jon will be on Wednesday and i had my trials yesterday with teacher Joanne. Guess what i got? I passed =D [at least] with 109 marks. 11 more to merit -_- It's the trials anyways lol i got 100+ for both my trials last year and for the real thing i got 123 xD (when i failed for my sight-reading) I failed sight-reading again xD (im hopeless i hate sight-reading) I got nervous yesterday and i couldn't play my pieces well but for my 2nd piece, I recovered frm 2 breakdowns ^^ so i got quite high for it and my dynamics were well displayed xD (that's what miss joanne wrote anyways)
So we moved to the new block. I don't really like it, i think the classes are kinda too small. I feel sleepy too. But atleast there's no floating classes =3 Aside frm science and kh... And i'm so skipping extra class for science tomorrow. I don't care whether she likes it or not. I didn't even go for last week's one anyways :P Now what i really need is... Sleep. Ah yes, what a wonderful word. My brother wasn't feeling too well today so he went home early(yes this is the cause frm sleeping 3am last night) I think he caught a cold or soemthing iono.(he wasn't looking too sick when i got home anyways >_>) Know your limits dude ! -_-
Mav : lol i guess u're still in the danger zone. I hope you don't get picked tho, it's a waste of time. Tho i don't understand why at first the trainee who hated ns so much ended up loving it so much that they wanted to go for it again. It's a mystery that i'll nvr know...
Jeng ranted @ 7:14 PM ;
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
- - Haiz.... - -
Sigh. Why are you people half-dead in here... feels like walking into a morgue...
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He sat by the calm lake's shore, looking over the serene water as the moon was rising high over the sky. It was an almost full moon, its light shining down on the small lake at which the young man now looked over, with it's small waterfall cascading into the waters, a gentle splashing sound compared to the great roar of the nearby falls. The young man looked up at the almost-full moon, imagining the face girl that he so desperately wanted to see sketched into the face of the bright orb in the sky. He sighed and shifted his view back over the waters. It was black glass, coloured like the night sky's black yet reflecting the luminious moon and the faint stars.
He sighed again. He had thought that she would have come. He had waited the whole night, until the Sun made its shy appearance over the top of the waterfall at dawn. Yet even then not even a whisper of her did he hear, nor a shadow of her did he see. He had packed up his things and left that day, but was back this night. He was feeling lonely, and this place... this place was a place where he always went to have peace. He went to this place to clear his thoughts, to run away from the troubles of his life. Here he would pretend to be whatever he wanted to be, no one would ever mind.
But one day that fragile peace of mind was shattered. It all began one day when he was a mere 14 year old. He had rushed through the forest at which the lake was hidden after being beaten by his drunkard father. He ran for what seemed like hours, that was how long it felt like to him. At last he had broke into the clkearing in which the lake was hidden, but accidentally collided with someone else, sending him into the lake. He had started to apologize when he remembered that no one else knew about this place of solace. He looked up and saw an angry girl looking up at him from the lake waters, soaked from head to toe. "Wha-what are you doing here?" he had asked, suprised. She didnt say a single thing as she got out from the lake, grabbed him by the shirt collar, and tossed him straight into the water before walking off.
The next day he was there, the girl returned. She apologized for her actions the earlier day, and he forgived her. They decided to take a swim together, and passed the rest of the day swimming, talking and laughing.
After their meeting, they became fast friends, spending alot of time with each other in the pool at which they had first met. They soon grew very "fond" of each other and frequented the lake even more to see each other.
It chanced that one day, while our young hero was waiting for his companion by the lakeside, that he heard a scream. He didnt even get to react before a blur figure burst through the woods screaming. Two guys moved apart some low hanging branches and walked through. The earlier figure hadn't stopped and tripped over a rock, sending her spalshing into the pool. "Hahaha... look at that..." one of the guys said, kneeling at the lakeshore closest to where she had splashed in. He was taking off his shirt preparing to jump into the pool when our hero grabbed him from behind and pulled him away. "What the hell do you think you are doing chasing her?" He asked, his fist balled as if going to punch someone. " Sis, who is this?" The guy who was pulled asked with a menacing glare at our hero. "May be someone playing with our girl..." The other guy said, cracking his knuckles. The first guy grabbed our hero by the collar and lifted him up a foot off the ground. He struggled to get free from the guy's grip, choking and gasping for air. "This is what you get for messing in other people's affairs!" The guy dropped him, and punched out with his other fist. His fist collided with our hero's face and sent him sprawling to the ground behind him.
"Stop!" The girl screamed from the lake. The two guys ignored her and proceeded to kick the young boy sprawled on the ground. "Stop it!" She screamed again. She got their attention this time, as they turned away from the boy and looked towards her. "I-I'll do anythin you want, just stop it..." She said, her eyes closed and face looking away.
It took them a moment to understand, but they smiled when they did. "That's more like it." The first guy said, giving a hard kick to the boy, making him roll out of the way. They walked towards the shore closest to her. The second guy made a motion with his hand, telling her to come to them. She reluctantly obeyed, swimming to the lake-shore. They grabbed her arms roughly and pulled her out of the water, dropping her on the ground. She got up slowly. She was wearing a white school uniform with a brown skirt, and wore her long hair in a single tail. She was soaking wet from head to toe. "Mmm... that's how I like it..." one of the guys said, pressing his lips agaisnt hers. She responded reluctantly. The other guy was behind her, pressing himself close to her and exploring her wet body. She was sandwhiched between both of them, helpless. The one kissing her detached himself, taking a step back. He motioned the other guy to step back too. "Undress yourself," he said, taking off his shirt. "From head to toe."
She stared at him unbelievably, not sure she heard right. The guy behind her gave her a head start by ripping off her hairband, letting herhair slap agaisnt her back. She slowly started undressing herself, begining from her soaked uniform shirt. She got to the third button when a weak voice suddenly spoke. "Wait..." She turned to her side to see the young boy getting up from his position from the ground. His nose was broken and bleeding.
" Stay down!" she told him, not wanting him to get hurt anymore. He staggered to his feet. "Get away from her..." he said weakly, balling his hands into fists as hard as he could. The guy who had punched him earlier walked right infront of him and fed him a knuckle sandwhich. The other guy joined him and they pummeled him into the ground a second time before returning to the girl. Before she could resume undressing herself, one of the guys pulled down her skirt while the other tore open her uniform shirt. The guy infront held her steady as the one at the back ripped off her undergarments, socks and shoes. A blush was creeping on her face partly from the excitement her body was recieving and from embaressment of being naked. With their undressing done, they pushed her to the floor and took off their pants. She closed her eyes as she couldnt bear to watch what would happen to her next. She waited for a second, nothing happend. Two seconds, still nothing. Three seconds, still nothing. She waited until 10 seconds before opening her eyes to take a peek. That's when she heard a shout, and felt someone stumble over her sprawled body.She opened her eyes fully to see what was going on. The young boy was fighting off one of the guys. The other had been beaten and had tripped over her.
The young boy fought with all he had, but he was tiring quickly. Luckily the rapist had tired out faster and was retreating back through the woods. The guy who had tripped over the girl scrambled to his feet and ran. With both of the goons gone, the young boy approached the girl. "Are you alright? He asked, helping her to her feet. "Yes, I am... Thank you for helping me..." She threw her arms around him, hugging him tightly. " I was so scared... scared for you and for myself..." The young boy, his face quickly becoming flushed, patted her on the back. " Dont you think you should wear some clothes...?" He prompted her gently. "Oh.. that's right..." She said, the colour in her cheeks deepening. She quickly collected her clothes and put them on. There was silence between the two of them for a moment... A moment in which, after, she wrapped her arms around him tightly and cried into his chest. He held on to her not sure of what to do. She cried into him for maybe an hour; no one was keeping time; when finally, she said : "I'm sorry for having done that to you..." Her eyes were red from crying, and there was still some liquid on her face. He wiped them away with his thumb. "It's okay..." He said gently, pushing her head genttly into his chest. She knew that if she didnt go soon, she would be in trouble, but for the moment, she wanted nothing more but to be in his arms.
-To Be Continued-
ShiroiKaze ranted @ 1:09 AM ;
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Friday, June 17, 2005
- - Just when you thought u are safe... - -
yea, if sms through the hp, u may find that u r not chosen for NS. but...there are rumours that (1)u hv to go through the choosing for 3 times because there are 3 batches. (2)i called up the hotline...they say the list for year 88 ppl hasn't come out yet and will be uploaded to site only in August. but some of my friends found out that they were chosen and they are year 88 ppl.
oh well...
see? the blog isn't THAT dead yet...period
Anonymous ranted @ 10:24 PM ;
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
- - lol dead (?) =D - -
weee everyone's missing ! :D i wonder where they all went? :D Me finished my kerja kursus (aside frm sej elemen 3 and geo that we might have to redo) Mr ratanam pisses people off :D Tomorrow's parent's day ! Finally the school don't have to drag this on anymore... and dang ! i forgot to ask my book back frm nirosha ! My P.S I Love You T_T.... oh wells there's always tomorrow. I'm falling asleep in pn zainab's class cos her teaching it's incredibly "amazing" ! anyways i dont want to rant a bunch of crap here i dont think anyone reads this anyways.
P.S Congrats mav ! that's good news now you don't have to waste 3 months ! ^_^
Jeng ranted @ 8:03 PM ;
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Friday, June 10, 2005
- - DEAD!? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - -
Lol I was expecting it to be flooded when I checked. But it's dead. What the hell man!?
Anyways, lol I'm in deep shyt like Jeng, my homework also isnt too good and now only left 2 days lol. Die.
Anyway, I think I've got the perfect story to feed you guys with again, but it'll take some time to write and I got an apointment with someone in GB... so.. laterz
ShiroiKaze ranted @ 7:35 PM ;
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
- - STILL PANIC!! - -
Yes it's time to
panic!!![again] D: I tried my best... fear came over me... I manage to finish sejarah kerja kursus today. So let's recap the list shall we?
Homework
Bahasa Melayu [done!]
English [done!]
Geo notes [not done -_-'' abt 40% to go...]
Maths [I don't have my book :D]
Sejarah Kerja Kursus [I've only done the important thing.. gonna finish it after this]
Geografi Kerja Kursus [I haven't even started yet!!! PANIC!]
Kemahiran Hidup Kerja Kursus [haiz... i don't know the bloody method so me skipped this but still will come back to it]
Science Project [my science teacher must @#$%ing die, like life is not hard enough only, NO i haven't done it either]
Right... so much for progress... but i did !! i concentrated on the geo notes.. -_- and only that... so... *sigh* 3 days left... I'm gonna die... screw this la 4 more months PMR which means 4 more months until i can go for a break. :] I wanna go overseas badly lol i was just talking about it to my mother yesterday. And she thought me to play some card games too, because my boredom was killing me when i was at the teahouse then her friend came along and thought me some other card game (yes, by using poker cards) fun ^_^ but i slacked the whole day yesterday -_- My mum brought me out to chill lol.Ahhhh.... i hate myself la... i hate my fuking life, i hate my fuking school and of course... We have ebil teachers... -_-|||| now i will stop whining and start working because i'm wasting time. I'm dumb i know i don't deserve to be in terra... I want to see my fuking report card very badly now. Let's wait till friday -_- AND I NEED TO GO TO AN ORCHESTRA THIS SATURDAY AND NEXT SATURDAY... i'm so dead i got trials for practical exam and pmr later and then my practical exam comes... then my pmr... wow the year passed by so fast.. I cried the other day thinking abt how things were last year and a few years back i didnt cry when i thought abt this year lol cos this year i feel there is nothing worth crying abt lol and nothing but painful memories but oh wells life goes on and i'm glad things are. I guess i need to drop by abi's tomorrow... *workaholic mode : ON*i'm gonna work my arse off... or not i cannot be saved... blah where is everyone anyways ~_~ all enjoying the holidays... ENVIOUS ! Fuking piece of shit(s)... Only jking :P I'm not that mean la... blah off i go. Curse education.
Jeng ranted @ 11:48 PM ;
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
- - PANIC !!! - -
Okay.. now it's definetly time to
PANIC I'm so dead. I've been slacking and haven't touch any work yet and shit it's the 2nd of June... And school is going to start in another 10 days and i have
LOADS of work to do... argh have to work hard now... The house has been quiet, my aunt went off to johor to clear her head and the police came and did some investigations.(that was quite some time ago) Yesterday i didn't get to go melaka in the end, I ended up going out with my dad doing some shopping and jalan jalan la... So tiring, from times square we ended up in mid valley and then home at abt 9 soemthing(tiring..)
Was disappointed because i was meaning to try out DR but didnt work so oh wells. Couldn't go out today with shi mei, nirosha, abi and derek due to some *ahem* *ahem* (we all know la...) So i'm getting motivated to pull a miracle off in 10 days time to kill all school work. (like i will but that doesn't mean i can't try !) have to stop slacking... AND MAV IS A CRAZY HEXIC PLAYER !!
(Know your fundamentals is mav, on No.1. Btw he has a new record now this is his previous ones. -_-)SEE THE SCORE?! OMG HE'S CRAZY !! -_- But nevertheless he still thinks he's not mad enough... I'm really bad at hexic lol and i don't like it that much. I'm addicted to fruits basket !!! T_T Oh no, save me !! For the manga is too costly and i have to waste a fortune to collect them all !!! >_< *sigh* i have to die... Anyways this blog is pretty dead, jon's dad gave him a curfew frm coming online(more like banning him) I don't know what i need to do for the hols and i need to wait abi to wake up to call me back so i can get my qork load..(yes she's taking a nap)
Me very lazy and tired so i guess this is it and all the other blog members are missing ;_;
Jeng ranted @ 3:24 PM ;
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